Osteosarcoma (Bone Cancer )

Hi everyone. it's been so long since my last post.
Bad news. 
I was diagnosed with Osteosarcoma. (Bone cancer)
I live in a northern town where you had to be half dead to get the proper care. 
my long bones in my body constantly feel broken. any time after nine o'clock its been pain full to walk . I am fighting to get the Oncologist to see me and do his damb job. He has overbooked his patients and asked to see me in six months. I can't wait six months. I do see him on the 14th. I am as lonely as ever. now people just seem to ignore me and pretend like I am not here. probably cause they do not know what to say or do. I want to move back south Toronto. and be with both of my sons but financially non of us can afford it. 
so I am stuck here alone.
it's the saddest feeling in the word.
something has to give. I want to be home with my boys. and if I am in the high rate stage of this bone cancer. I want to be home and die close with my boys beside me. 
I have never felt so helpless in my life. 
I just jeep the faith and pray maybe the universe will make it all so and make it right.
this is all for now until my next rant.
love and be good to yourselves and others. life is just to farm precious and short.
 xoxoxxo